I know how you feel, Belgy. You get like that after you've been a moderator for a bit. It's inevitable, to some degree, I think. I felt a lot like that before I resigned.
You weren't a 'people's mod', and you never strove to be. You were certainly very determined to get the job done. We all have different styles of moderating, and I feel that mine differed from yours in many ways, but you were good, and committed, sensible and responsible, and you ultimately got the job done, as I've said.
Sorry to see you go.